If you’re wondering what on Earth this is, it’s me. Uploading a new post. I took an impromptu break from the internet earlier this year, and didn’t write or upload any new posts to the blog.
At the end of March, I got really overwhelmed by life. I’m very much of the opinion that you should make the most of your time on the planet, but trying to balance that idea with not giving yourself too much to try and squeeze in is a toughie. I was trying to work a day job that requires me to coordinate multiple multi-faceted projects at the same time; maintain this blog; write a book; keep up a fitness regime; meditate daily; make homecooked, healthy meals every day; get 7-8 hours of sleep every night; spend time with Luke, friends and family; read; plan a holiday; look after two adorable cats; keep an eye on the housing market; continue to grieve after losing my Dad and my Grandad at the end of last year… and it was too much. It got to a point where I had so much on my plate that my mind was spinning so fast everything was a blur, and I felt so overwhelmed that I couldn’t do any of it effectively.
So, while we were away celebrating our second wedding anniversary in the Brecon Beacons, I sat down with Luke and we discussed everything that was on my mind. He’s really good by the way, he’s like a therapist I don’t have to pay for/wait 10-12 weeks to see. I think it really helps to get the opinion of someone else – it’s hard to get a clear, non-biased look at what’s going on if your own mind is in the eye of the storm.
Anyway, it was pretty clear to Luke (and to me once we’d talked about it), that I was just trying to do too much. I have big ambitions, and generally feel like I need to be working towards them RIGHT NOW. I don’t take tomorrow for granted, and I don’t want to leave the world having not achieved the things I want to achieve. So it’s a very delicate balancing act.
Interestingly, I’m not like this at work. There’s loads I want to do, and I always have lots of different projects on the go. But I’m good at prioritising, and I easily make my peace with the idea that I only have so many hours in the day, and if it doesn’t get done then it doesn’t get done. Whereas at home, I NEED TO ACHIEVE EVERYTHING IMMEDIATELY. It’s this kind of mindset that leads me to neglect my mental health.
So, the plan. We decided that I should concentrate on the basics. This includes sleeping, eating well, exercising regularly, meditating… you get the gist. The things that I need to do to stay both mentally and physically healthy. Oh, and my day job, ‘cause you know, a gal’s got to eat. Once I had these down, I could start gradually reintroducing the extras.
Funny story: About a week after this discussion, I announced to Luke that I was considering signing up for The Wolf Run “because I don’t have any physical challenges to train for at the moment.” LOL. It’s like I just can’t help myself! He talked me out of it. Obviously.
Anyway, blogging took a back seat for a while as I tried to get life back on a more manageable track. It takes a lot of time and mental energy to run a blog; from brainstorming ideas, developing recipes, taking and editing photos, to writing the content, and doing the marketing to promote it all.
What I will say though, is that as long as I don’t put too much pressure on myself to blog like a professional, I enjoy it. Writing is my thing. I go into my own little world, and it’s almost like a form of meditation for me. And I like the fact that I can look back at it and remember all the things I’ve documented so far. I can see our trips to Norway, Hamburg, Copenhagen, Athens, Mallorca, my 30th birthday in the woods, my monthly highlights…
So, I’m getting back to it, but with a couple of changes.
1). Instead of getting stressed out trying to stick to a posting schedule, I’m just going to post as and when I please.
2). I’m not going to worry about using social media to promote the blog. The older I get, the more I appreciate a life away from social media. Sure, it’s nice to check in with people you don’t see that often, and I love nothing more than snooping through people’s wedding photos (doesn’t matter if I’ve not seen you since we were 11 years old, I’m still keen to see your gorgeous dress and your uncle getting drunk at the reception), but it clogs up my brain and I’m not about that.
I don’t know how frequently I’ll be posting, but what I can say is I’ve been writing up our South Coast Road Trip, so that’ll be coming soon.
It’s a shame I’ve got a big gap on my blog, but I believe it was an important gap to have.
Until next time, mis amigos…